Lengkapkah kasih tanpa sayang ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

atau ... malam tanpa siang ...

atau ... bulan tanpa bintang ...

so ...

where kasih goes ... sayang follows ...

begitulah ... kasih sayang

peneguh kehidupan ...

today ... menjelang azan subuh ... sms meluru ...

dari seorang anak kasih sayang ...

Inna liLLahi wainna ilaihi Rajiu'un ...

Sayang of arwah Sister Junaidah telah pun menyusul nya ...

Al-Fatihah ...

...  18 July about kasih nya ... di sini

oh my lemon ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

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kalau ke pasar besar musim ni ... memang meriah ... dengan lemon

one hypermarket has lemons from south africa ... berkodi kodi ... asyik tengok ...

i love lemon ... first of all for its colour ... it is so CERIA (capitals for emphasis ye ... bukan jeritan batinku hehe) ... real mood booster ...masyaAllah

musim musim begini ... panas and bugs flying around ... Allah SWT perbanyakkan pula penawarnya ...

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ni ... lemon juice and honey for buka puasa ... kurang ice ye ...

ni ... lemon chicken ... lauk buat buka ... resepi ... sini

ni ... lemon kena pukau ...

Image source and details on how to light up for hari raya with lemons hehe ... here

and ...

jangan ever lupa ...

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AlhamduLillah, AlhamduLillah, AlhamduLillah :)

errr demammm ...

Assalamualaikum wbt

illustration je hehe ... Image source

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ni lah dosa ketawakan suami who got the bugs early in ramadhan ...

he's getting better and in the process has passed on the bugs to me ...

sharing in pain and in gain lah tu ...

masih ingat masa sekolah dulu tercampak kat asrama ... bila demam selsema tu pergi bawa main ...

pukul pukul bola tennis sikit dengan kawan yang sorang ni ... shidah ...

bila main lupa pasal demam ...

then balik asrama meragam balik ...

orang muda ... tahan je kan ...

ni dah tua ni ... alah ... manjanya badan ni ... ngada betul  ...

tapi kan kalau lah dapat buat macam kat bawah ni ... tengok video ye ...

sure berpeluh dan sehat balik badan ...

kalau saya berani je buat ni ... pergi jauh sikit lah dari mata orang ...

suami? hehehe ... traditionalist yang amat ...

so buat je lah dalam rumah ...

family prancing

Ramadhan 8am - 2pm ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

antara lain yang membuat brunei ni sentiasa di hati ... ni ha ...

kalau bulan puasa all civil servants kerja 8 to 2 with no break ...

ramadhan was always the best working month there ... especially for ladies yang selalu terkejar kejar nak siap itu ini for iftar ... bangun awal prepare sahur ...

juga beri lebih ruang untuk ibadah bulan ramadhan ...

hmmm boleh kita buat?

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dan di bulan ramadhan ni macam macam ada di pasar tamu brunei (di sini kita panggil pasar tani) ... but yang sangat berkenan di hati ialah terubuk bakar mereka ...

meeemang banyak ...

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boleh je tambah sambal kicap ni ...

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maaf belum waktu buka ni ... pekap mulut ye :)

Al-Fatihah ...

Buat mu Sister Junaidah ... Semoga roh mu dicucuri rahmat dan dalam keampunan dan redha Allah SWT ameen ...

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Assalamualaikum wbt ...

Sister Junaidah is the reason for my diligently following the writings of Prof Hasanah ... she had breast cancer ...

Today i called her ... and her daughter answered. I said nak cakap dengan ibu. a slight hesitation and she passed me on to another male voice ... 

siapa tu i asked. acik nak cakap dengan ibu i explained again.

and slowly he said ... acik minta maaf ... ibu dah tak ada ...

ibu dah meninggal seminggu lalu ... second day of puasa ...

Inna Lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiun ...

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sesal dan sedih yang amat ... menusuk hati ... not knowing and not informed ... but anak explained ... it happened so fast within the week ibu was in serious condition ... father was also just recovering from his treatment ... and we do not know who are mom's friends ...

and i said it is Allah's will that I did not have the chance to meet her ...

Allahumma ... kurniakanlah  Jannah Mu for my Sister Junaidah ... ameen ...

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now the father is in the hospital ... his battle is with another cancer ... of the intestine ...

Allahumma berilah kesihatan, kekuatan dan kesabaran kepada mereka sekeluarga ...

 Ameen ya Rabbal 'Alameen

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June ...

aku melihat jejak tapak mu ...

antara Muharram dan Sya'ban ...

hilang menjelang Syawal ... 

Sweet memory ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

is like corals in the deep sea ... you leave it ... grow it will ... and a gesture in a distant past becomes a glow in the present ...

this is how i felt about something beautiful that happened yesterday ... 

just before iftar i received a message ...

Anak: Assalamualaikum acik :-) Alhamdulillah i received the news that i passed my professional exam, d grades are not yet announced. i think i may not have d chance 2 further research in harvard as 4 d cost & lack in qualifications. i still believe in doing research locally iA for the next 1 year. do pray for me :)

Acik: Walaikumussalam wbt dear T... AlhamduLillah syukur banyak for your achievement. Allah SWT eases your path ameen. About Harvard not to worry. Banyak paths insyaAllah to go there. Maybe not now. My doa for you :) selamat berbuka. Allah SWT terima ibadah kita mudahan insyaAllah ameen.

Then after iftar i received another message, just before 'isyak ...

Anak: Acik, i have a sensitive question. Do you think er .. i may get good husband?

(a very very big smile as i read that ... i ve the feeling that she purposely asked to trigger that smile precisely ... but never has anyone asked me such a sweet question ...)

Acik: hehehe. Simple dear. Mohon pada Allah SWT for suami yang baik. Yang sabar dengan perangai kita yang kadang kadang kurang arif. InsyaAllah InsyaAllah. Acik doakan yang baik untuk T... Ameen. Ingat Acik dalam doa T... ye. :) nak solat now. Esok sambung insyaAllah.

Anak: Jazakillah acik. ameen :) Insyaallah ingat acik dalam doa :)

 the anak, though not mine, is like that beautiful fish swimming among the glowing corals ... calm and calming ... SubhanAllah ... AlhamduLillah ... May Allah SWT keep her safe and baik fiddunya wal akhirah ameen ...

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update kecik ...

hmmm i ve understood ... her question was a reaction to the flying fox's news about a marriage going through the haze ... the challenge facing a doctor wife must have created fear in this future young doctor herself ...
Wahai anak ... May Allah Subhanahu wa Ta'ala protect you against duka nestapa perkahwinan and this life ... and may you light the lives of those who are in pain ... Ameen

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Guru Quran saya ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

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... semasa di brunei saya belajar membaiki bacaan Al-Quran dengan Ustaz yang bertugas sebagai guru agama di kementerian pertahanan brunei di Tutong. Ustaz dari simpang rengam, johor dengan isteri kak Marti.

saya minta ustaz perhati bacaan saya sebagai persediaan saya menunaikan haji alhamduLillah. Mengaji di ruang tamu rumah Ustaz, Kak Marti sebelah kiri depan saya sebagai teman, Ustaz depan saya ...

saya baca ustaz dengar ... di tangan kanannya kayu halus macam rotan ... bila saya silap ustaz ketuk kayu tu ke carpet tu ... kadang kadang terperanjat saya sebab Ustaz ketuk keras ... Ustaz macam garang but the truth was he loved al Quran very very much ... then he would explain why i was wrong ... banyak lah silap saya ... which was very good ... because i would note with pencil by the margin all the corrections ...

... now many many years later ... setiap kali meneliti Al-Quran yang sama ... baca semula nota-nota masa belajar dengan Ustaz ... lepas baca ... saya ke almari simpan diary lama cari nombor telefon Ustaz ... 

AlhamduLillah baru je berbicara dengan Kak Marti ...

AlhamduLillah setiap Ramadhan saya akan cuba menghubunginya ...

Itulah guru Quran saya dan isterinya ... may Allah SWT tempatkan mereka, keluarganya dan kita semua dan keluarga kita dalam kalangan Pencinta dan Pengamal Al-Quran ... Ameen Ya Rabbal 'Alameen ...

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maka nya apabila buka diary lama ... belek belek pula contact yang lain lain ...

teringat pula kawan baik sama sama kerja di sana ...

jumpa no telephone rumahnya di sarikei and called  ...

dapat cakap dengan adik iparnya ... and got her contact pula ... she is now a resident of melbourne ...

tanpa mengira apa waktu kat sana ... terus je called ... first call reached her voice mail ...

then immediately she rang back ...

apa lagi main teka teka siapa ni lah sekejap hehe ...

what a pleasure to hear familiar voice ... my friend is a chinese girl from sarikei kota nenas ... my adik Kak Cik and i dah sampai sana and met her there masa kami traverse sarawak by car from brunei-kucing-brunei macam tak hengat muda muda dulu ...

in brunei, Felicia was alone and so was i ... sometimes i pi tidur tempatnya and sometimes she came to mine ... begitu lah bila dah merantau ... nampak ke kita asal kita ... no really no ... the only thing that we knew was that ... we were girls in a foreign situation and that we supported each other to get by ...

begitulah kehidupan ... 

insyaAllah will meet up with her when next she stops by in KL on her back and forth trip to sarikei ...

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My adik ... Acik

Solat Isyrak and Solat Dhuha ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

peringatan untuk diri ... peringatan untuk diri ...

dari Masjid Assobirin ...

http://www.masjidassobirin.com/soalisyrak.html

Ya Allah, Ya Allah, permudahkanlah ... permudahkanlah ...

demi masa ... yang sangat pendek ... 

ruginya saya yang selalu lupa

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Sumber Illustrasi

 would i know my next step

beyond the mountains ... and the barren valleys

no ... i would not know ...

stay then for isyrak ... whilst the sun rises ...

and dhuha when the camels start feeling the heat ...

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Fasting and The Quran ...

Assalamualaikum wbt,

 

Ahlan Ya Ramadhan

Wahai diri ku ... ingat ye ...

First and foremost ...

The month of fasting is the month of Al Quran ...

Ramadhan is made the blessed month because it is the month in which Al-Quran Al-Kareem was revealed ...

The Quran is sent down to take people out of darkness into the light ... 

More here ...

Shaikh Muhammad Salah: Make this Ramadhan our best Ramadhan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zhhv4kxSl24

Second ...

and Ramadhan is a great blessing to women who understand ... Dr Zakir Naik has this to say ...

Dr Zakir Naik: 12 things to avoid during Ramadhan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=16tZG7BvdpE

Surah Al-Baqarah

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Ramadhan Kareem dear All :)

Pahit manis ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ... 

apabila sesuatu yang tidak menyenangkan itu berlaku ... kita berusaha mencari jalan keluar ke arah yang lebih baik ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ... 

kemajuan itu mulanya dengan sesuatu yang kita tidak puas hati ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ... 

kalau adab dijaga ... Allah SWT pembantu sebenarnya ...

so don't worry ... be happy ... and just move on to new opportunities ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ...

kalau kita puas dengan sesuatu hal dan keadaan ... kita leka dan dilekakan ...

and others start taking us for granted ... then kita tersentap ... hehe 

so be it ... kita tersentap sekejap ...

then ... next step!

AlhamduLillah, AlhamduLillah, AlhamduLillah :)

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yang manis itu madu ...

dan yang pahit itu hempedu ...

... bumi :)

both ubat kannn ...

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by the way ... kenapa ye ... bak kata MP ... entah apa yang tercolek ... blog ni dah macam semacam je ... macam ada dua wajah berlainan ... apahal ...  i have no idea ...
so anyone can help me ... please beritau ye ...
thank you ... thank you :)