the nomad in us all ...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
 اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah syukur ...

AlhamduLillah syukur ... syukur and sabar for all life moments ... dalam sihat dan kuat ... dalam sakit dan lemah ... AlhamduLillah ...

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AlhamduLILLAH for Ramadhan the Blessed ... 

light and easy today ye ...

i am a girl ... yes girl sangat lah makcik tu :) ... but hati like a boy tak mau duduk diam ... i am anak Negeri Sembilan but was born in Tg Karang ... one of Malaysia's important rice bowls ...

i am sure ramai yang maklum adat orang dulu bila anak lahir, the placenta (B.Melayu nya temuni/tembuni not too sure of the spelling and too listless to google :) selepas dibersihkan, di balut dengan kain, seterusnya ditanam ditempat yang sesuai disekitar pekarangan rumah ...

sawah padi di Tg Karang ... image source here

alkisah ... 

persekitaran rumah di Tg Karang tu ground water levelnya tinggi ... maklumlah sawah ... so abah pun tanamlah placenta hak saya tu dekat bund jalan ... because bund jalan di aras yang tinggi ...

fast forward many decades later ...
abah passed by the area dengan kawan baiknya ... and he told the friend the place where he has buried the placenta ... and kawannya kata ...

"Patutlah budak tu tak balik-balik ... tanam tembuni eh tepi jalan ... berjalan je lah dia ... hehe ..."

well maybe true maybe not ... whether that's the reason for my affinity towards the roads and discovering what lies beyond ...suami and "old age" and "cracking bones" have stabilised this life ... staying put is an option most of the time ... but given any opportunity ... i will be willing to board a train to anywhere ... suami je yang tak ndak ni :)

so what's this lamunan all about ...

here it is ... 

bila kita sendiri tak daya nak buat dan capai hajat ... kita celebrate those that can MasyaAllah ...

i have been following and am sharing the travel of this amazing Malaysian Gentleman who travels the world to find himself ...

http://zahariz.com/2014/07/07/3047/

an image from his travel ...

source ...

May we learn many things from his amazing journey ... InsyaAllah 

BarakALLAH to all :)

dari jalan ke jalan ... liku ke liku

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
 اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah syukur ...

 

AlhamduLillah syukur ... for semua yang menceriakan kehidupan ... dalam senang dalam susah ... cabaran menjadi motivasi penambahbaikan yang berterusan ... maka kita menjadi semakin pandai serta bijak mengolah suasana ... Alhamdulillah.

 

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hari ini satu story saja ye :)

 

 

more about this image below ... but first the story :)

 

 begini ceritanya ... 

seorang adik bercerita ... "aku pergi dari jalan ke jalan mencari rumah no. 6 itu ... akhirnya jumpa di jalan terakhir" ... ye ... ada taman perumahan nombor rumah-rumahnya tidak bersiri berterusan. Jadi nombor rumah mesti disertakan dengan nama jalan juga. Adik ni tadi dapat alamat tersebut melalui carian internet. Dapat nombor rumah dan nama taman saja. Dia pun pergi dengan sahabatnya mencari empunya alamat di taman perumahan tersebut ... Sampai di sana barulah diketahui cara penomboran rumah. Menyusurlah mereka dari jalan ke jalan ... dan dari liku ke liku ... mencari rumah yang dituju ... dan akhirnya bertemu. Sampai di sana tiada penama yang dicari ... hanya jumpa orang tuanya.

bertanya itu ini ... adik tersebut terpaksa pula berterus terang kenapa mencari penama ... "hanya dia yang tahu di mana saudara kandung saya berada Pakcik ... dan kami sekeluarga sangat ingin tahu khabar beritanya dan mudahan dapat berjumpanya pula insyaAllah" ... maka diceritakanlah kisah silam yang belum berpenghujung ... Pak Cik pun berjanji akan menyampaikan hasrat adik tersebut kepada si penama.

Mudahan Allah SWT memudahkan pencarian keluarga tersebut ... yang hilang dicari ... yang merajuk dipujuk ... yang jauh kembali kepangkuan ... Ameen

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kisah dari generasi ke generasi ...

http://realifeinmalaysia.blogspot.com/2013/05/merajuk.html

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salmon pulang ke rumah ... setiap musim ... their instinct is to return to their birthplace ... over and despite any obstacle ... MasyaAllah

rain of experience ...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
 اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah syukur ...

AlhamduLillah syukur ... for imperfection completed ... since there's no way that we can obtain that perfect state ... less than perfect let you move on to the next step ... fill up the gaps as one moves along ... learn and relearn ... the only way to go ... alhamduLillah

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alhamduLillah for the time to ponder and take a break ... for a short while ... so let me share a couple of stories ...

update on this below ... :)

more about this below :)

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Story Satu

To EPRD Putrajaya yesterday, with sahabat sepengajian. Sampai-sampai about 10.00 am, straight to the library. And what do you know. Disambut oleh petugas-petugas with the news that the "library is closed for today". It's being used for a farewell function of a retiring Ketua. My immediate response was "InnaLillahiwainna ilaihi raji'un".

the petugas tercengang then tertawa ... then i explained ... kita sebut InnaliLlah bila kesusahan dan musibah ... ini kesusahanlah ni ... dah datang dari jauh ... tiba-tiba tutup pula ... sememangnya InnaLillahiwainna Ilaihi raji'un ...

later i realized why he ketawa ... that maybe ... just maybe ... petugas to fikir saya ucap for the outgoing ketua ...

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Story Dua

on the way to EPRD, my friend who was driving, passed a gravel-loaded lorry. There was canvas over the load ... and it was not the first lorry that we passed that morning ...

but this one was different ... as we passed ... gravels rained over our car ... and once out of the downpour ... we saw a small crack at the corner of the windscreen ... InnaLillahiwainna ilaihi raji'un ... i used to have that PLUS number for assistance or to report trouble on the road ... but i've lost it somehow ... so we were way out in front when i finally was able to locate one by the highway and reported what happen, with details, registration number and location where it occurred ... 

that done ... but immediately soon after someone called from 'SPAD?' (have to check this one out) to get more details from me ... it appears PLUS has referred my report to them ... among other things it is good to have some evidence when reporting - photo for example - especially if it involves claims ...

I explained - no we are not asking for compensation or anything ... we just want PLUS to do something to stop them so that it will not happen to others too ...

that done ... i turned to my friend and asked her ... did we read "doa berjalan" just now? she said yes ... that's why tak marah ni ... masyaAllah ... :)

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now for PLUS users here's the emergency number ...

1 800 88 0000

take note of location when reporting to them ... those numbers indicating the kilometers by the side of the highway (yes ... semua orang tahu :) ... just in case jika ada yang tak perasan :)

our own experience ...

- a flat tyre ... we needed cover from the flying vehicles that passed close by

- red cones used during road construction lying in the middle of the lane ... in the middle of a blind night ... on the fastest lane

- and about other objects lying on the lane ...

it's a useful number ... so do retain it :)

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I love google :) ... 

anything in mind ... there's always an answer ... relevant or not that's another matter altogether ... and today i googled "rain stone" and I discovered "yuhua" the rain flower stone ... nice isn't it :)

For more read ... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yuhua_Stone

update ... 1
i found out that the flower rain stone is part of a family ... the agate. Further googling on agate got me here ...

http://www.agateswithinclusions.com/Argentina.html

do take a look and enjoy the colours ...

masyaAllah
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Update ... 2

i can't believe that a lorry load of gravels that damaged our windscreen has led me to this ...

i was trying to figure out what is agate in Bahasa Melayu ... and it has come to this ... Batu Akik

this handsome ring is from here ...

http://permatamurahsokmo.blogspot.com/2013/06/cincin-akik-yaman-merah-darah-asli-gred.html

gift for loved ones? check the site out :)
trustworthiness as in research validity and realiabilty? ... the site owner was already featured in Sinar Harian ...

riding the crest ... and suhaili

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
 اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah syukur ... 

AlhamduLillah syukur ... Allahuakbar ... He the Most High gives cabaran ... but setiap satu ada cara selusur nya ... buat kita yang mahu belajar ... the wonder will never end ...

" And His are the ships sailing smoothly through the seas, lofty as mountains." 
<Qur'an-Rahman 55:24>

" We have honoured the sons of Adam, provided them with transport on land and sea..."
<Qur'an-Al 'Isrâ 17:70>

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finding MH370 ... leads  me to the mysterious world of sailing ... and many lessons learned on human's capability to survive a challenge ...

here are some samples of ...

riding the crest of tough and turbulent times ... over and over ...

in company ...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UG6FhK96dBg

and alone ...

at 29 ... a bearded young man - the winner of the Sunday Times Golden Globe round-the-world race of 1968-1969, in which he had sailed alone in his 32-foot ketch some 30,123 nautical miles at an average speed of 4.02 knots, without putting into a port, without anchoring, and without any outside assistance ... 312 days - 10 months of alone-ness ... and the ability to not sleep ...

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xObpjZ-s9pg

"... i've no right to let me down after taking me this far ... "

Occasionally you'd get feeling a bit down, and you'd say, well, if this was easy, someone would have done it. I've got the chance to do it, because it isn't easy. So I'd better stop whinging because it's difficult and just get on with it. So I sort of talked myself around it ...

in Suhaili ...

the painting ... the painter's story here

the object ... started as a log ... the builder's story here

hand built from local teak in Bombay and named "Suhaili" - "Companion" in arabic ... is also the arabic name for the local south-east wind ... sailors' companion at sea ... 

for what is a sailboat without wind ...

and the route ... more here  

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and Suhaili is the name ... 

a companion ... 

tough, strong and trustworthy ... MasyaAllah 

more here on Oceanography and Muslims Navigators

 so let go of our children ... 

to the oceans ... the air ... mountains and forests ... and the wild deserts both cold and hot ...

another jewel in real life ...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
 اللَّهُمَّ صَلِّ عَلَى مُحَمَّدٍ وَعَلَى آلِ مُحَمَّدٍ

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh

Alhamdulillah syukur ... 

AlhamduLillah syukur ... syukur and sabar ... for life is a gift ... our life and that of our loved ones ... syukur arises from iman ... sabar from understanding ... may Allah SWT keep us strong ... ameen.

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but sometimes it takes an extraordinary incident for us to realize the extraordinary gift of Allah SWT ... and invariably each of us has a story to tell ... but i am grateful that this daughter of a blessed father has shared hers ... a reminder for all ... AlhamduLillah ...

http://www.nst.com.my/latest/font-color-red-missing-mh370-font-touching-letter-from-a-mas-pilot-s-daughter-1.518063

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and ... the other side of hajjah ... 

 among loved ones at queen alia international airport ... amman ... 

dear friends ...
hajjah ... if she is a man ... she would not be staying put ... her love for words start with "vagabond" ... she likes to move about incognito ... in strange lands ... she talks way too much to strangers ... young and old ... that's how this blog writing started in fact ... she wanted to share her amazing interactions with those elders sitting outside a bank ...

she likes to observe and study people and their micro worlds ...while having breaks in cafeterias, while driving, shopping, exploring ... such that the word "bored" - she doesn't understand ... she makes scenarios out of scenes ... to enable her to understand better ... she believes thoroughly that understanding leads to sabar ... which is one most difficult attribute to sustain ... but surely sustaining it is jihad ...

 and she writes  on different templates ... her other templates ... one here ... started as a requirement for a forum where anonymous was not allowed ...

 about other templates ... hmmm ... not yet :)

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May Allah SWT guide our every step and bless us all ...

The exciting science ... of Laman

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

AlhamduLillah syukur ... for plants ... and flowers ... and dirts ...and mucks ... and gardens ...

just watch the science of it ...

here ...
 

... i am being a kid and learning all over again ...

:)

only 5 ...

only 5 the plant needs for living ...

yes ...

the 5 plant growth regulators ... plant hormones ...

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auxins

cytokinins

abscisic acid

gibberellins

ethylene

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auxins ... to root

cytokinins ... to shoot

abscisic acid ... for laterals

gibberellins ... to flower and stem growth ... seed germination

ethylene ... to ripen ... the beginning of the end

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kalau nak ambik peksa ... more here ...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plant_hormone

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if only this was the way my biology teacher taught me in plant biology ... alangkah exciting nya ...

well ... still ingat lah juga nama tu sikit sikit but now with the gardening activity back in my schedule

... the art of propagating is much more understood ...

because some plants are so simple to propagate but some are much more challenging ...


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just another pleasant stress buster ...

:)

crossandra ... image source here

oh ... baru tahu nama nya ...  although mine is more yellow than orange ...

yang saya manjang tinggalkan but the plant never give up on me ... forever berbunga alhamduLillah

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and ... happy birthday mak'mbong ... Tina and Danial and Amir and sume sume sume ... jangan lupa doa mak'mbong ye ...

:)

AlhamduLillah syukur ...

Anakanda ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

di tengah malam ... dalam sunyi sendiri anakanda mengingati diri ini ... bertanya khabar ... menyata rindu ... mencatat rasa ...

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anakanda ... acik faham ...

that you think your life is getting more challenging ... you have your own ambitions to achieve be it as a muslim, daughter, student ... family and friends to care ... 

and the community to serve insyaAllah ... in the end you think your life is about giving ... 

rarely you have time for your own ... but you do hope that you can still remember me in your prayers and that we can still meet in Jannah insyaAllah ...

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Aameen ... for your doa ... Aameen

Anakanda ...

yes ... masa yang sedikit ... masa yang terhad ... tetapi jangan lupa ... Allah SWT can easily extend the value of time for us such that ... a moment of good deed may have the value of 100 years of life ...

so my child ... despair not ... 

for Allah SWT is Most Gracious in His Favours for us ...

with much love and affection ...

 Acik

anakanda ... lihat ...

the sky and its white clouds ... the limit of time
the islands and their lush greens ... your aspirations
the blue sea ... your challenges
 the beach and its white sand ... upon which you are standing
and the white foams dancing in ... your commitments

Acik


(image source ... here ...)

Time and tide ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

... Demi Masa ...

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menjenguk mail di yahoo ... and i was led to this adventure into the past ...

where time and tide wait for no man ... 

or building for that matter ...

wonderful display of before and after towards the end of the video  ... a great method of documenting history that will surely make history a subject to be enjoyed in school ...

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... and a different understanding of tide ...

here

 image source ... here

and the mountain stream ... waits for no one ...

Kawan kawan ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

InnaliLillahi wainna ilaihi rajiuun ... kawan sedarjah di sekolah rendah yang juga saudara sekampung ... Rosli ... telah kembali ke rahmatuLLah ... innaLillahi wainna ilaihi raji'un ... insyaAllah arwah akan dikebumikan di hari yang penuh barakah hari ini ... Ya Allah Yang Maha Pengasih ... kasihanilah dan ampunkanlah dosa arwah Rosli, arwah ibu dan ayahnya dan kami semuanya yang masih di sini juga yang telah kembali kepadaMu ... al-Fatihah ...

14 ogos yang lalu saya bercerita tentangnya ... di sini

 arwah his father kalau mengikut style orang negeri sembilan ni walaupun sebaya emak tetapi pangkat sepupu saya (2pupu ... 3 pupu macam tulah) - maka panggil abang je ... well known as the chief cook in kenduri kendara di kampung ... dulu dulu gotong royong je no catering bagai ... my own abah sampai sekarang tak boleh accept the concept of  catering di kampung ni ... abah menyampah betul ... but terpaksa juga menerima keperluan tersebut di zaman di mana yang muda muda tiada lagi di kampung ... 

and cuti semua orang pun sangat terhad nak berkampung pelbagai bagi mengatur kerja ...

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ye di kampung bersawah padi pun dulu pakat bergotong royong ... best part for budak budak part makan makan tulah ... bubur kacang hijau was a favourite ... 

now sawah padi pun sudah diambil alih oleh kelapa sawit yang semuanya diusahakan oleh felcra ... a bit sad for the loss of sawah land generally ... but alhamduLillah emak maintains her own little piece of tanah padi tanam kelapa instead ... syukurlah sangat emak rajin berkebun ... masyaAllah she is more cergas than me ...

and

i am also very happy to see that the Terachi area after Ulu Bendul tu is again vibrant with green padi fields ... AlhamduLillah

may Allah SWT keep our kampungs and nation aman damai dalam barakah sentiasa ... ameen

penyejuk hati dan mata ... image source ...rice field in korea here

The final actions ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

... image source ... here

it's the end of the day ...

thinking about the moon ...

and thinking about the road ...

where i am standing ...

i can see only the moon ...

i cannot see the end of the road ...

and so is this life ...

i can only hope ...

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We look again into the guidance as shown by the Prophet SAW on how to travel the highway of life as highlighted in the Hadith collection of Imam Al-Nawawi rahimahuLLAH ...


Hadith No 4 ... Deeds are their final actions

On the authority of Abu Abdurhman Abdullah ibn Mas`ood (ra), who said: The Messenger of Allah (sas) and he is the Truthful, the Believed, narrated to us:

Verily the creation of each one of you is brought together in his mother's womb for forty days in the form of a nutfah (a drop), then he becomes an 'alaqah (clot of blood) for a like period, then a mudghah (morsel of flesh) for a like period, then there is sent to him the angel who blows his soul into him and who is commanded with four matters: to write down his rizq (sustenance), his life span, his actions, and whether he will be happy or unhappy (i.e. whether or not he will enter Paradise).

By the One, other than Whom there is no deity, verily one of you performs the actions of the people of Paradise until there is but an arms length between him and it, and that which has been written overtakes him, and so he acts with the actions of the people of the Hellfire and thus enters it; and verily one of you performs the actions of the people of the Hellfire, until there is but an arms length between him and it, and that which has been written overtakes him and so he acts with the actions of the people of Paradise and thus he enters it.

(Sahih Bukhari and Muslim)

For the detailed audio commentary ... please visit

http://www.40hadithnawawi.com/index.php/the-hadiths/hadith-4

 

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humility ... 

perseverance ...

 gratitude ...

no hope is ever lost ...

Epic fun toy ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

another epic bike ... another accident ...

more here ...

http://www.thestar.com.my/News/Nation/2013/08/25/Datuk-killed-accident-genting.aspx

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hanya pencinta memahami apa yang dicinta ...

and i like how it looks ... but that's all ... setiap kali nampak these bikes on the road mencelah situ sini kadang kadang i can only make doa for them ... selamat mudahan selamat ...

curious ... maka seperti biasa nya menggugle lah saya ... this particular superbike ... a Kawasaki GRT1400

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so here is the epic fun toy ... i am using the words of the biker in the video ...

 image source ... here

watch the ride ... here

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apa apa pun kalau dah cinta tak boleh nak larang ... but hati hati and banyak banyak doa when on the road ... both yang menunggang tu dan juga bagi yang memerhatikan ...

and ...
jaga adab ye jaga adab ... adab orang yang berseronok jangan buat orang marah ... adab orang yang marah bawa bersabar dan doakan mereka Allah SWT bagi hidayah ...

our own brother is a bike lover ... 

yang murah je dulu because that's all he can afford ... :)

Cute girl, mouse and gorilla ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

i have three favourite t-shirts for home ... with three different captions - printed loud across the chest ...

one blood red shirt says ... SUPER CUTE GIRL with a smiley

one pink shirt says ... GORILLA  ... original in no zent (back)

one white shirt says ... MOUSE ... forget me no (back)

kan senang je kalau ambil picture je kan ... uhhh dah lusuh dah ... namanya pun favourite ... basuh pakai basuh pakai hehe ...

... neither am i a girl (maksudnya i am a lady lah now and super cute yes haha jangan percaya) nor a mouse and definitely not a gorilla ... but those captions more or less sum up my real self ...

mostly calm and sweet ... sometimes macam tikus mondok je diam buat bodoh ... and very very rarely macam gorilla  kena cucuk ...

dan bila dia (tak mau terima kenyataan maka saya jadi dia) transform jadi gorilla ... baik pergi jauh jauh atau diam je jangan balas jangan inject pula lagi ...

i am only human kan ... and so is everybody ... 

dalam urusan saya hari-hari macam macam yang unik saya temui ... yang saya sikit pun tak terfikir ... i listen to them and all sorts of real life scenarios unfold ... 

so i have learned not to be too quick to sum up a judgement ... 

because the root i cannot see ... the many WHYs that lead to the WHAT ... 

some may be obvious ... some may not ...

and so please allow me to share this then ... my dad was not an angry man ... son says ...

more here

... sometimes the rope snaps ... 

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while searching for gorilla images i found this ... gorilla glass? am i out of date or what ...
more here ...

Bila orang marah ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

yes ... bila orang marah kita cari jalan to calm him or her down ...

tetapi kalau tak pandai macam mana nak tenangkan orang tu ... kita diam je lah ... jangan lah pula kita mencurah minyak ke api ...

kita mungkin menganggap that has nothing to do with me ... but here it is the tale of a stressed out driver ...

more here ... Genting crash

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kehidupan seseorang kita tak tahu ... apa masalahnya ... kenapa dia stress sangat ... life is so very demanding sekarang ... expenses tinggi ... income tak seberapa ... 

seperti halnya ... kena rotan sebab miskin tu ..

so what can we do ... we can help by not adding to the stress ... bak kata orang ... kalau tak boleh tolong janganlah menambah masalah pula ... 

especially on the road ... 

clearly most of the time we are all strangers among each other but kalau kita ingat yang destination tu satu je ... mungkin sabar dan insaf sikit agaknya ... 

itu lah antara adab seperti yang Prof Syed Muhammad Naquib cakap tu ...

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more here ...

1. Kena rotan kerana kemiskinan ... here    2. Adab ... Prof Syed Muhammad Naquib

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kalau stress stress ... let's transport ourselves to this cool beaches and stream ...

blue is my world di sebalik batu ... but my biru bukan untuk haru ..

a sway to chase the haru away ...

kita main kejar kejar dengan ombak ...

this has a story ... here ... the rest are just googled ... here

... good day all ...

Pahit manis ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ... 

apabila sesuatu yang tidak menyenangkan itu berlaku ... kita berusaha mencari jalan keluar ke arah yang lebih baik ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ... 

kemajuan itu mulanya dengan sesuatu yang kita tidak puas hati ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ... 

kalau adab dijaga ... Allah SWT pembantu sebenarnya ...

so don't worry ... be happy ... and just move on to new opportunities ...

AlhamduLillah ... pastinya ...

kalau kita puas dengan sesuatu hal dan keadaan ... kita leka dan dilekakan ...

and others start taking us for granted ... then kita tersentap ... hehe 

so be it ... kita tersentap sekejap ...

then ... next step!

AlhamduLillah, AlhamduLillah, AlhamduLillah :)

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yang manis itu madu ...

dan yang pahit itu hempedu ...

... bumi :)

both ubat kannn ...

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by the way ... kenapa ye ... bak kata MP ... entah apa yang tercolek ... blog ni dah macam semacam je ... macam ada dua wajah berlainan ... apahal ...  i have no idea ...
so anyone can help me ... please beritau ye ...
thank you ... thank you :)

Inna Lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiuun ...

Assalamualaikum wbt,

Allah SWT mengingatkan kita ... apabila di timpa musibah kita ucaplah ...

 Inna Lillahi wainna ilaihi rajiuun ...

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10 June 2013 about 12:15pm ...

dalam mengejar saat dan minit ... saya terlepas pandang beberapa minit ... yesss only seminit dua ... and yang disayang dan diperlu hilang dari pandangan ... the handbag ...wahai sesuatu yang tak terucapkan ...

 yang di sayang memori dan kasih sayang yang tercatatsimpan di dalam nya ... (now i understand the meaning of subjective loss ... maybe:)

yang diperlu semua yang berkaitan dengan keperluan bagi menjalani kehidupan harian ...

the moment it disappeared from where i have just placed it ... my heart dropped ... and i said innaLiLLAHi wainna iLaihi rajiuun ... terus ke security buat report ... 

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... terus ke bank ... cancelled all bank cards

called last person for whom i have written a cheque for details

cancelled all unused cheques

got new cheque book

tanya procedure for new cards ... officer kata ...bank perlu mycard ... kalau pergi Pejabat Pendaftaran Seremban insyaAllah 2 jam boleh dapat Mycard baru ... wahai memang diri ini akan diuji ... cerita seterusnya nanti ...

other bank ... telephone je to cancel the bank cards ..

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 terus ke balai polis 

report loss

report contents of handbag ...

kita cerita je ... the officer wrote final report ... part ini memang kelakar sikit ... sesiapa yang pernah baca report yang polis tulis memang nak senyum ... lenggok bahasa laporan tu sebiji macam cerita hikayat zaman dedulu ... sempat senyum lah saya dalam sedih ... sedih hanya Allah SWT yang Maha Tahu ...

bayar fee laporan rm2.00 ... seluk saku jubah betul betul ada 2 keping rm50.00.

officer kata tak ada duit kecik Puan ... tak apa saya bayar katanya ... Allahummasalli'ala Muhammad ... bila dalam keadaan begini ... bantuan yang nampak kecik inilah yang membuat hati syukur sangat masih ada kebaikan yang kita dambakan ...

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terus ke Pejabat Pendaftaran Seremban ... buat mykad

syukur kebetulan turn giliran jumpa officer yang kami berurusan untuk PR card suami.

AlhamduLillah ... tunjuk laporan polis ... isi form ... okay check ibujari kanan okay diterima ... now check ibujari kiri ... sekali ... sekali lagi ... sekaliii lagi ... wahai kenapa tak padan padan ni ...

officer tu lelaki so he minta tolong rakankerjanya sebelah seorang wanita tolong buatkan untuk akak ni katanya ... mula mula tak faham juga kenapa he passed me to the lady then bila lady tu pegang jari adjust situ sikit, sini sikit nak bagi best capture image ibujariku itu baru faham kenapa he passed me to his lady colleague ... hai slow betulkan saya ni ...

tak boleh padan juga image ibujari kiri ni ... so saya tinjau komputer nya ... kenapa ye saya tanya ... laa rupanya tengah tengah jari tu dah tak ada image sikit ... kosong ... laa mana perginya garisan tu ...

ke dah tanda tanda nak meninggal dunia ke saya tanya officer tu sambil gelak lah tu ... saya ni perangai macam ni lah kalau sediiiih sangat buat lawak bodoh je yang pandai ... syukur banyak Allah bagi sabar ni ...

tidaklah puan kata officer tu ... ramai juga yang macam ni ... yang muda muda pun ramai sambungnya (mengiye kan saya dah tua lah ni haha) ... sebab saya kata mungkin dah tua kut hehe ...

tak ape tak ape ...

in which case kami kena hantar ke Putrajaya application puan ni ... so dalam 2 minggu insyaAllah baru boleh siap mykad baru ...

laaa ... dari 2 jam ... ke 2 minggu ? macam mana tu ... tak ape tak ape ... sabar ... 

ambil gambar itu ini selesai urusan ...

tanya pula ... boleh ke bank terima dokumen sementara ni untuk buat bank card ... i called our bank officer and passed her on to the Pendaftaran officer ... cakap cakap cakap ... laaa bank tak boleh terima dokumen ini sebab case ibujarikiri tak ngam tu ... okay

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now driving licence pula ... aduhai ... satu hari dah berurusan ...

barulah terasa impact of this loss ... rasa dah tak larat dah ... so belumlah saya buat buat lagi ...

tunggulah mykad tu siap insyaAllah 

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lain lain ... nak kena buat matrik kad pelajar ... medical card ... itu yang ingat setakat ini

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Begitulah ... AlhamduLillah ... sangat sangat bersyukur masih ada paspot malaysia tu ...

kebetulan masukkan dalam bag urusan imigresen suami ... and on this same day earlier in the morning Oghang Besar suami saya tu called from Jabatan Pendaftaran to say that he has collected his PR card ... finally AlhamduLillah ...

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sesekali ... sendu mendatang ... then teringat ... Allah SWT lagilah Maha Tahu yang benda itu saya sayang ... and tetap ia hilang ... He Maha Bijaksana as to why it has to hilang ... so saya mencari makna memuhasabah diri ... alhamduLillah

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dan setiap sesorang ada sejarah kehilangan ... harta benda ... kasih sayang ... hopefully i can understand better ...

white tulips for me ... and you ...

More than one ...

Assalamualaikum wbt ...

banyak suara sinis tentang perkahwinan terbaru seorang yang dikenali ramai ...

but i can only say sesiapa yang berbuat sesuatu yang dihalalkan Allah SWT, dan mereka semua (the husband, all the wives, the children, the respective families in fact the community in which their entire life is played out) yang terlibat dengan kehidupan itu have a consolidated common vision ... then who are we the strangers to be cynical about it ...

... the pain is when those involved are having different mental models ... expectation yang berlainan ... dan vision yang berlainan ... 

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a friend has two spouses ... the first an architect, the second a syariah graduate, not very different in age ... the second called the first kakak, very respectfully and with much sisterly affection ... initially they lived in one household ... only later the husband was able to provide two separate accommodations for the two families but still next to each other ... their children playing and learning together ... along with private teacher and housekeepers while both the mothers were away at work ...

out of curiosity i once asked the elder, the first ... how do you manage your feeling ... and this was her simple answer ... kita tak boleh ikut emosi ... we must be rational about things ...

simple je bunyinya ... no doubt banyak cabarannya ... only Allah SWT knows and only Allah SWT yang boleh bantu mereka yang berniat segalanya untukNYA ...

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personally ... i do feel at the end of the day it is the ability, capability, open and fair instead of hide and seek and the wisdom of the husband along with again i would say a common vision ... itu saja ... kalau tidak memang umpama melawan ombak badai sajalah setiap detik kehidupan itu ... consistently in exhaustion and in pain ...

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teringat zaman bujang ... malam malam (awal pagi infact) Ramadhan bila ada kesempatan di rumah akan bersama abah menonton siaran langsung dari Makkah al-mukarramah ... sangatlah syahdu dan terkedu dengan bacaan-bacaan Imam Masjidil Haram itu ... i don't remember which one but this particular morning i remember saying to my abah ... abah kalau imam ini datang kat abah pinang saya, tak payah tanya saya terus terima je okay, no 4 pun tak apa ... hahaha ... abah kata ... ko ni m...

itulah saya dengan abah saya ... :)

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okay joke aside ... marriage is a serious collaboration it is not a joke joke ...

It's not a very long way to go ...

... for us ...

so petiklah kurma kurma bekalan yang terbaik untuk bekal ...

please see kisah di sini ...

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saya tersasar ke sini dari blog Prof Dr Hasanah ... yang baru kelmarin kehilangan bonda yang dikasihi ... Al-Fatihah ... Allah SWT ampunkan dan tempatkan bonda dalam kasih sayang dan rahmahNya ... ameen Ya Rabbal 'alameen ... we are on the way too ... mudahan kita semua sentiasa dalam hidayah dan rahmah Allah SWT, dalam perjalanan kita yang tidak berapa jauh ... ameen

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following her link ... i found the narration which is so apt for our journey yang semua menuju kepenghujung yang sama ... 

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 and it's not a very long way to go ...

it's just because we are slow ... as time is relative to how fast we move ...

as in Eistein's formula ... one of the most beautiful formulae in mathematics as shown here

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Allahumma ... ampun kanlah  dosa kami, ampunkan lah dosa ke dua ibu bapa kami ... kasihanilah mereka sebagaimana mereka mengasihi kami sewaktu kami kecil ... sabarkan lah kami terhadap mereka sebagaimana mereka yang tidak pernah gagal sabar terhadap kami ... ameen ya Rabbal 'Alameen ...

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Love and Salam all

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http://www.listen2quran.com/default.aspx

Surah 15/Chapter 15: Al-Hijr (with Malay translation) / The Rock (with English translation)
13min. 51sec.
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road to somewhere

Merajuk ...

bawa diri kata orang kita ... 

ada merajuk hati saja ... bawa hati saja ... tubuh tidak ke mana, jadi memendam rasa sajalah ...

ada yang merajuk dengan menjauhkan hati dan diri juga ... yang tak mampu, merajuk bawa diri dekat dekat ... yang mampu dan keadaan membantu, bawa diri jauh jauh ... ada yang balik semula ... ada yang balik jenguk jenguk ... dan ada yang hilang terus ...

teringat emak bercerita that one of her older brothers ... merajuk ... merajuk dengan almarhum atuk ... till now the family have no news of him ... emak is the youngest in a family of eight ... orphaned at 4... and was raised by one of her already married sister ... she was too young to understand what had transpired when the brother went away ...

and emak selalu lah bercerita tentang abangnya itu ... and she had a phobia ... and sangat takut if any of her children would merajuk like her brother ...

sangat susah hati emak tu dengan perwatakan and cara one of our brothers ... so she was very careful with him ... 

but alhamduLillah now we are all grown up ... dah  berkeluarga sendiri ... including our brother tu ... alhamduLillah

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 balik kepada kenapa orang merajuk ... what i have known through real experience of yang merajuk sama ada cakap-cakap je nak pergi jauh ... atau memang yang dah menghilangkan diri terus ...

sebab rasa sedih ... sangat sedih ... sangat sangat sangat sedih ... tentang sesuatu hal ...

hal tu pula pelbagai ...

ada yang nampak remeh tetapi berpanjangan ... ada yang memang melalui critical event ... maka merajuk bawa diri ... membuang diri ...

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my adopted sister Kak Syarifah, orang Sega, Raub, a retired teacher, selalu ingatkan bila kadang kadang terasa nak lari ke bulan ... hehehe ...manusiakan ada je yang menyentuh dan tersentuh ...

M------- katanya ... ke mana pun kita pergi ... hati itulah yang kita bawa ...

benarlah itu KakPah ...

kita tak boleh kawal hati orang ... but kita boleh kawal hati kita sendiri insyaAllah ...

hati yang masih bersih yang masih belum dihambat lemak ...

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salam and love all :)